i can safely say that the time, the worst decisions make for the best lessons

//so far that's how my year seems to look like to be honest// 

\\& less than a week till i turn 20\\

so blessed not to have veered too far off the track despite all the nonsense things i've done 

And be near
Just for the moment
Stay here
Never go home

i've got so much to do i am barely surviving
also i keep getting distracted by.. lots of things, so upsetting

like all the boys i've liked before i look back at you and wonder what the actual fuck was i thinking.

trying to find something to motivate me more
but so far the strongest motivator is ... lobster
like i'd want to work so hard and become successful next time and earn enough money to have lobsters on weekends

how strange and idealistic

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Ellie Goulding was a serious 10/10
I can't even
So here's a video of her performing Army (the main reason why I went)

You'd think that she doesn't sound too good in real life (cause her studio recordings do sound a bit edited), but she was so so so good, and this song just strikes a chord in me

i am very done with uni
with relationships in uni
with everything in uni
5 assignments a week, 18 hours of lessons - it's taking a toll on me