Almost 1am
And there's something terribly wrong with me.

I feel such a great inertia when i think of going out with the very few friends i have because i just don't see a need to? And its scaring me because when i leave what's going to happen? i don't let my guard down easily & so what about making friends in UK? And if i don't even have a social life now when i should and could, what then?

As my mum would say at the end of the day all you need are a few close friends so the number of friends that i have - is it enough? Do i go out and make more friends? Maybe you can never have enough friends

Or a simple way would just be to screw all that i've said above
& go out and have fun instead of staying home & watching movies all weekend

That'll be my aim for the month i guess? Take more chances be more adventurous eat better food eat different types of food (not chinese or italian or japanese) learn to eat spicy food learn to be more patient learn to love people more for who they are & not how they treat you treasure the things i have now & don't worry about the future but be prepared for it